My Konstantine.

I can't imagine all the people that you know, and all the places that you go, when the lights are turned down low. And I don't understand all the things you've seen, but I'm slipping in between you and your big dreams. It's always you in my big dreams.
And then you'd bring me home, afraid to find out that you're alone. And I'm sleeping in your living room well, we don't have much room to live.
My Konstantine,
You spin me around like a dream,
We played out on the movie screen.
And I said, did you know how much I've missed you?


Alexalexalexalexalexalexalexalexalexalexalexalexalexalexalex.

Well, I don't think I care.

You know what? I actually feel sorry for you. You're so insecure with your own damn life that you have to bash other people up for the music they listen to, for the clothes they wear and the people they hang out with. And if that wasn't bad enough, you then procced to rip that off. You are the epitome of insecurity if I have ever seen it. I'm sorry if your friends hate you, or if your siblings hate you. All insecure people look for is attention, so I will do just the opposite.
Bathe in your ignorance, failure.

I'm starting to hate sand.

Hellop! No, it isn't a spelling error, i'm not a retard. Okay so I had badminton training at Palawan Beach today at Sentosa and it was a bloody killer! I didn't get the message about wearing running shoes to run so I brought my badminton shoes and I had to run in them! So messed up. And like he made us do physical all the way and it was so damn tiring.
He made us like run through the bloody sand and shit with our shoes. DON'T THINK I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, you're probably thinking "Bullshit la you, sand so what? easier what??" YOUR HEAD AH. It's like so much bloody harder la! And we had to run from like Pawalan to Siloso (really don't know how this is spelled) and like we had to run back. WTF. No stopping, but like the sec ones kept walking and they made me wanna walk! Grrr. So angry! Then he made us sprint up this stupid hill from a grass place with animals to a bloody carpark. YOU TELL ME WEIRD ANOT. Then he made us do footwork, IN THE SAND, IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY IN THE BEACH. God... I was like omg. damn damn damn! There weren't even hot guys, only pretty girls and that sucks major ass crack for me. Shit man, I was so sad.
But you know our coach made pretty sweet ass sandcastles? When I saw him, he was really tan... and he was covered in sand.... yeap, pretty much. And like when I saw his works I was like hella dank! And then I just went all like, awwww DIP!
So yeap, then a few of us went to eat at superdog and the food was kinda good. BUT SHIYIN. OMG. SHI YIN. when inez went to take her food she protected it like it was her life la! Then she threw all her fries back in the box and hugged it. HAHA. greedy girl. So yeah. Inez's dad sent me home, this stupid girl told me to lie. -_-
Okay, this ends my day. I'm getting my brace tomorrow, WISH ME LUCK! haha, not really. Okay, goodnight! :) I love you all very much because I love you very much. yes.

FUN DAY AT IKEA AND GARDENS!!

Hello everydoggies! :D
Okay so today, it was Nicole's birthday celebration (only SPPLOA) and Douche didn't come. wtf, because he was sleeping. wtf! :( so sad you know. EH, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I'M DAMN SAD OKAY? :(
okay anyways, we went to the IKEA at tamp... I really do not know how to spell that bloody place thing. You should know where la okay? :D Okay so we went there and we all tried finding bloody useless stuff to buy. HAHA. So yeah, I bought a doggie sippy cup (two different colours!!!!) I bought a blanket. Yeah, I know, what the hell right? HAHAHHA, it's damn soft la.
My mom just totally ruined my blogging mood now okay. STUPID FUCKER YOU KNOW. EVERYTHING ALSO TELL MY DAD. WTF SIA. WHEN YOU KEEP ASKING ME THE SAME BLOODY STUPID QUESITON THAT I ALREADY FUCKING ASKED YOU, DON'T KEEP ASKING ME AGAIN AND ANNOY ME AND THEN WHEN I JUST LIKE GIVE YOU THE FUCKING ANSWER IMPAITENTLY, THEN DON'T SAY THAT I AM FUCKING RUDE BECAUSE I AM NOT. YOU ARE THE ONE THAT IS FUCKING ANNOYING AND GETTING ON MY NERVES AND IF YOU WANT TO LEAVE, THEN YOU CAN FUCKING LEAVE BECAUSE I'M DAMN TIRED OF YOU THREATENING TO FUCKING LEAVE. LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE LA. AS IF YOU WILL LIKE THAT BLOODY HELL. oh my god i am so pissed. not the mood to blog about happy stuff anymore. Okay, i'll blog about the bad stuff.
YOU KNOW THE FUCKER TOLD HER DAUGHTER TO CUT THIS BLOODY LONG CUE. then she forced her bloody idiot of a daughter to squeeze through the railings just to get a bloody soft cone. -_- and she fucking cut in front of me la! ASSHOLE OR WHAT?? Then her daughter was like squeezing through the railings and started yelling in pain then her mom was like "If you want your ice cream then you have to squeeze through it" THEN I WAS LIKE. WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM? YOU WANNA CRACK HER RIBCAGE ISSIT? I FELT LIKE SLAPPING HER FACE LA. omg, I cannot stand these kinda typical singaporean losers. They are so loser-ish that they have to cut my bloody cue JUST TO GET A SOFT CONE. I mean, c'mon, if you HAD a life or if you HAD the nice-ness in you, you could've just waited, LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. stupid little bitch slut crack whore motha freakin cue cuttering princess asshole! pissed off.
OH, but other than that, I had a great time at school doing math! Yeah, it's hard to believe but I'm kinda starting to wanna do well in math... GOOD FOR ME! :) I am happy. Though, I still have to convince him not to kill me because I failed math and geog. And he's not very happy with me after what my bitch mom said. bloody prick. *MIDDLE FINGER MUCH*

The day is feeling hopeless.

Oh my god damn god. My dad got me a laptop on his own free will and I haven't told him about my results yet. Bloody hell do I feel guilty, I feel so guilty. oh my god. Nevermind, I'll do well for my start of year math paper and prove to him that I can and DO study! and work hard. I'll be damn attentive during Mr Ghee's lesson tomorrow. love him man. But i think he hates me. :-/
Daft Punk is ftw btw, HAHA. SO FUNNY. FTW BTW. Anyways, I feel like eating bacon. (Y) Looking forward to tomorrow! SSPLOAs will unite for the first time. I bet everyone will be staring like "whoa, these three girls and one guy are like rebels! how cool are they?!" Yeah, we know, we know.
Hey guys! Have you seen MTV Teen Cribs?! Okay, if you have, have you seen the kid with the slide in his house? And his dad's an inventor?? ANDREW? I THINK HE'S DAMN CUTE. YEAH. OMG. I THINK HE'S REALLY DAMN CUTE. And I won't mind staying in his house. Vanessa.... ;) wink wink. HAHAHA. Awesome asian lookin' kid right there! And his brother uh, J... whatever, he's hot! Like asian cute hot, but Andrew's cute. Yeah, FO SHO. I saw alot of hot guys today!!!!!!! happeeeee.
I'm so hooked on andrew. I have photos of him in this personal book I have, so cool. CREDITS TO MARY FOR THE FORMAT OF THE PICTURES. smartass. So anyways, quick update today. DEFFO, MORE TO COME TOMORROW! :D

If you're cheap trick, I wanna be expensive trick.

Hello all, so guess what? I got my results back and I failed MATH AND GEOG! as expected. :-/
Screw Rock (geog teacher) fucking prick. I bloody think I'd rather spend your bloody geog lesson doing math. At least I HAVE an interest for math but for geog, screw it. You said it's more important then math, so guess what? I'm FAILING math, and math is really important so if you THINK for one bloody second that I'm listening in your class or if I THINK geog is important, you can go screw yourself.
I don't think I dare to show my dad my report book because I don't want him to yell at me especially after going away for so long but he's coming back so I'm gonna wait for him to leave then ask my mom to sign it and pray she doesn't say anything about it to my dad. Although she has a fucking big mouth and lies about not telling him anything all the time, I can try and pray she won't be a bitch. I'm so against everyone now because of geog. I don't know why, it just pisses me off that fucking MOE makes us learn SHIT we could care less about and like PLEASE LA, WHAT JOB INVOLVES GEOGRAPHY OTHER THAN BEING A GEOG TEACHER HUH? Even if you want a job, you have to like go overseas. -_- and please la, you want a 6.5 million population. FAT HOPE. Because of your stupid education system, children like ME will MOVE ONCE WE GET THE CHANCE TOO. And since you want me to speak proper english, I shall not, so as a typical singaporean would say "Eh, you want 6.5 million pro-pru-ration issit? WAIT LONG LONG." teehee! *Pats my own back* I'm just so pissed off.
And like MOE keeps raising the standards because what? He thinks we'll get smarter?? BULLSHIT LA PLEASE. We will FAIL and GIVE UP. So stop raising the fucking standards because it's stupid and CHILDREN LIKE ME ACTUALLY GET BEATEN so unless you want to have the whole no canning thing here I suggest you stop raising the standards or else sooner or later you'll force 3 year olds to do principle of accounts. -_-
So pissed off.
Oh my god! I love the Kinks! And Cheap Trick! hence the title. hahahahhaha. anyways. So like YEAH. whatever.
I'm going out alot this week. Monday I'm going to IKEA with nicole mary and luc. SSPLOA! xxxcited. And uh, on friday, VANESSA! We're gonna watch lovely bones and stare at hot guys!! I'm xxcited to go out with her too! Love this boney little John O' looking girl. :) But I'm going to study for the math test alot. I reallly want to pass so I can like tell my dad "hey look I'm improving!" and I'll fucking mug for geog and shove it in miss lee's *WHOOPS I USED YOUR NAME, AHH WHO GIVES A SHIT* face about how I passed her stupid dumbshit subject.
Okay right now, i just look forward to Monday, yes. Monday. Goodbye, meet at at IKEA and I'll say hi. to you. Yeah. HOTDOGS!

Misery loves me.

You are a failure and you know it. You suck in school and your life is a bore and you are nothing but messed up. You have to hide stuff from people that you need most in your life because honestly, no one can understand how you feel. No one will never be truly there and no one will watch you when you're falling. They are going to let you fall and hard, and they are going to force you to walk to broken glass to get to what you want because life is a bitch and life has discerned you as a complete failure. And after some time when people accuse you of something, you don't care anymore because you know that no one is going to believe you since you've always been failure. You hate it when you have to be happy in front of everyone because you know they're gonna ask you what's wrong and you're tired of explaining something they would not understand. You'd like to think that you'll go down with the world when it ends because after all, the captain goes down with the ship. You wish you could steer your own life but because of the fucking law, it has to be on automatic unless you fight for it which has been proven too tough for you. You are weak but you're fighting a war that was never meant to be fought and you of course, are losing it zero to a hundred. You hate it when people tell you not to give up and you of all people know that it's not that you have given up, it's that you're too bloody scared to try it because you know for a fucking fact that you are going to fail.
Failure. It makes everyone unhappy and it kills you to have to live your whole life a loser because you failed.
You are a loser.
You need to buy yourself another life because this life is too short and in your hands, it's not worth spending.
You are the person writing this post because you know too much about failure.
You need someone like McMahon to write songs that motivate you so you don't fall into an endless pit of depression and kill yourself.
You are pathetic.

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If you were the apple of my eye, I'd dig my eye out and sell it on ebay.

Hello everyone. So i'm pretty pissed off today... Yeap, for one, I'm can pretty well bet on my life that I'm going to fail chinese CA. For the first time in my life. Yes. I have never failed chinese before, GO AHEAD MOCK ME FOR BEING THE ASIAN GIRL THAT I AM! GO TO HELL!
So if you have me on FB, you probably saw my current status and well, you should know who I'm talking about unless you are a total retard. Okay, let's see, the first person will be Rock and the second person will be Fats.
SO, rock teaches me geography and we'll she's a pretty badass teacher. I mean DAMN, she teaches SO well. It makes me wanna gag. That's how much I like it. ALSO, she yelled at me and my friends today for the discussing about a question SHE told us to answer. Well, that's what I call GOOD teaching skills because we ALL know that you have to scold EVERYONE in order to get your way isn't it? Yeah... I'm pretty sure that's what YOU think. Yeah, and she told me she's pretty damn sure that I'm going to fail! YES, that is what teachers SHOULD do! INFACT, ALL YOU TEACHERS SHOULD DO THAT. Teach your subject SO AWESOMELY that everyone in your class FAILS! And then when you find out that they fail, scold them and PREDICT what they will get in the near future and kill their hopes of passing. Yes.. You may not know this but this is really what every student wants. OH! And SHOUT at someone who BOTHERS enough to answer your TOTALLY sensible questions in class for being RUDE. OH and I'm extremely sure that every teacher doesn't want their student to SHUT UP AND LISTEN. Yes. You don't, BUT you don't like it when we talk and make noise. What do you suggest we do Rock? OH OH, and she's SO nice that she's NICER to the other students who she likes. And when they get real high for tests, she'll be so nice and say shit like "ALL OF YOU SHOULD LEARN FROM HER BECAUSE SHE PASSED. BLAH BLAH BLAH." and when someone you DON'T LIKE gets the highest for a CA test *COUGH* mary *COUGH* you tell the class "It doesn't matter who got the highest for this test" YES. OH YES CHILDREN, I FORGOT. YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO STUDY ABOUT ROCKS BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO NEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT ROCKS THEN YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT MATH AND SCIENCE WHEN YOU'RE IN JC! YES. THAT IS WHAT WE LIKE. I BLOODY PRAISE YOU OH MIGHTY GOD OF ALL SEDIMENTARY ROCKS. I PRAISE YOU. \m/
Now, I shall move on to fats, YOU SEE.... her name kinda explains it all and plus she teaches me home econs. Awesome or what? She lets us cook food that is SO tastey and SO healthy, I would like to yet again, gag. Ah.... yes. FATS you see, has PERFECT eyesight. You wanna know how I know that? Teehee! I'll tell you, because when my friend *COUGH* nicole *COUGH* left her bloody book on the table where you WORK at ALL DAY, you didn't see it and ACCUSED her of not handing it up. YES. Oh! And also she is so god-damn resonable I just want to freakin' strangle myself! When I was gone for three/two lessons, I assumed she was SMART ENOUGH to know that I had a competition going on because everyone already told her. BUT NO! Teachers, FIRST RULE OF TEACHING! You can NEVER trust your students, ESPECIALLY THE MONINTOR YOU PICKED YOURSELF. YES. You cannot trust that she has a competition because you can be sure that she is lying. WHY? Because children sin. EVEN THOUGH YOU KNOW THAT YOU CANNOT FAKE HAVING A COMPETITION, PLEASE TEACHERS, ASK YOUR BLOODY STUDENT TO BURDEN HER CCA TEACHER IN CHARGE TO WRITE A LETTER ABOUT HOW SHE TOLD THE TRUTH. that's what a GOOD teacher should do, yeah, you're the best. ALSO MISPRONOUNCE COMMONLY USED WORDS! Like you can say Pepper as pepper, it as RIT, or whatever as whatevel, OR THE MOST COMMON ONE, fingers as fingels. Hell yes will your students love you! Oh, and after school, you should really hold them back for AS long as you can, because YOU out of everyone KNOW BEST that singaporean children actually do have a life and they spend it carelessly outside of school because they don't need to study and that is why you have to hold them back. Yeah, so hold em' back till like 2 when they were released at ONE THIRTY. that should really waste their time. OH! And a real good tip for wasting more of their time is to tell them stupid stories that make NO SENSE and have NO LINK to whatever the hell you are saying! EXAMPLE, talk to your students about a sandwich competition and tell them a story about how a girl snatched a bloody stupid piece of shit from your hand because YOU made her do something STUPID AS HELL and you MADE her REDO it again. Now, we would all like to do that wouldn't we? YES! ALSO, TELL YOUR STUDENTS STORIES ABOUT YOU BRINGING TOMATOES TO SCHOOL. THAT WILL REALLY HELP THEM IN THEIR EDUCATION! Then wait and scold them and tell them their attitude sucks till it's two then slowly release them. That should be it! Now your students hate you and will eventually start blogging about you. THAT my friend is also how you get bloody famous if you want to.
And I shall end my rant here. I shall post it on FB where all can see. Hmm, I think I should be president. WHAT'CHA SAY? *i say yes* \m/

My child is going to be hot!!! I hope.

Hello everyone, I'm really hyper so I'm going to blog. YES, PART LIKE ONE THOUSAND OF WHAT I AM PLANNING TO NAME MY CHILDREN!!!! :D I don't know, I just like thinking about names for kids, I think I should work as like you that person you go to, to like help you pick a baby name? Oh shit, I think old chinese monks do that. Scratch that then. :-/
I LOVE picking guy names. Because I want a guy. I mean, a girl is fine, I'd just like to have a guy more.... Yeah! Not in order btw.
BOYS.
1. Jack Jr.
2. Alexander
3. Julian (yes, it's because he's hot and I magically hope that my son will turn out to look like him okay?)
4. Caleb
5. Andrew
6. Edward
7. Zac
8. Bjorn
9. Dyllan
10. Forrest (I'm serious)
11. Gabriel
12. Jared
13. Travis
14. Vaughn (like for a middle name and stuff)
15. Maximilian

Hmm, Yeah. That's all I can remember, I know I missed out some but I'll post them like on monday for somethin! :D

GIRLS. not in order either.
1. Blair
2. Leighton
3. Tegan
4. Dia
5. Kaylee
6. Alexis
7. Whitney
6. Lea-Ann /Leah
7. Maci
8. Delilah
9. Lila
10. Holly
11. Adele
12. Juliet (Maybe....)

Wow, I make it seem as if I'm gonna like have 69 kids. YAY ME! teehee!
I really like the girl names but I still want a boy. Or like twins. OMG, I HOPE I HAVE TWINS LA. ONE BOY AND ONE GIRL. IT'LL BE LIKE FUCKING COOL CAN? NICEEEE. But I like the name Bjorn. I don't know why... Hmm... I like babies!!! But not like all at one time, then I feel like slamming my head against a wall. I like a few babies but like I hate alot of babies or even kids all at one time, I feel like slapping all of them. Especially when they learn how to talk in full sentences and they keep yabbering bullshit you don't wanna hear. Yeah. I hope my kid is hot. Like really, that's all I really want. AND I FUCKING PRAY THEY DON'T HAVE CURVED SPINES. FUCK FUCK FUCK. I hate my bloody spine la. I bet like ARGH! Tag if you have to wear a brace, because I feel your pain and it makes me feel like cutting my spine out. Yes yes yes. Oh guess what? I have this pilot pen competition and I'm playing against RGS. Screw you draws!!! Okay, no hope in winning already. Lemme go to sleep! Goodnight!!! :)

Are you catching my drift yet?

I'll leave you behind, it's not the first time. We've been through this, it happens every time. You hear the sound of my name at the top of their lungs, and this dumb game you play isn't fooling anyone and now i wanna know, are you catching my drift yet? Now that we have said goodbye, don't try and fix it up again. It's my fault that you can't stand a thing i do? And don't lie cause we know you want too, now i can't seem to comprehend how the things your saying is not what you meant at all because last time i checked these so called "friends"were your "friends till the very end". And now I know, that i have made big plans, and i have said big things that i have pulled out of my head, that these sins are kept a lot, and have been kept it all now a handful is all thats left.
Can you just look at how things were, and how they are now, and please tell me that i am right?
Just tell me why its so hard for you to be wrong for once in your life.

Oh, are you catching my drift yet?

You are an annoying orange.

Damn, I can't even stand looking at you anymore. It's irritating and it pisses me off. And I really mean it when I say it's pissing me off. Stop ripping people off. And stop using everyone just because you THINK you can and STOP listening to things you do not even/HATE for crying out loud. And you said I ripped you off?! Bullshit, B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T. And stop rolling your eyes! OH MT GOD. BAD HABIT. BAD FUCKING HABIT. you don't even know half the songs you download from the website I GAVE YOU.
Today was an okay day. I had school, and I did my art for Junie the lip bitch. And guess what? I have a new found hatered (is that how you spell it?) for Home Econs teachers. Okay lets give these two irritating creatures/teachers names!
Douche and Bag. :D
Okay, so Douche is like this crazy bitch who thinks that we can do WHATEVEL we want. And well she gives us tons of homework and she thinks everyone is damn slow and that she's damn cool because what she brings bloody tomatoes to school.
Douche, well, she's irritating. She told us today to LAUGH LIKE GIRLS. HOW THE FUCK ARE GIRLS SUPPOSED TO LAUGH? Boys and girls laugh differently? DUDE, I'M SORRY THAT YOU DON'T SMILE OR LAUGH OR HAVE SO LITTLE DRY HAIR BUT I MEAN, JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T LAUGH DOESN'T MEAN WE CAN'T!! She asked us today what was so funny untill we laugh untill like that. Then I was like "WTF, OBVIOUSLY SOMETHING DAMN FUNNY RIGHT YOU IDIOT." I mean I didn't say that but still. yeah. I am pretty effin' pissed off today. I plan to like bullshit on Lee-Lee tomorrow. She's so full of crap.

I should start acting like that guy who stopped talking.

Hey guys, so I'm pissed off.
Because of my sister I got a fucking scolding from my dad. Because she left her fucking shit on the floor. Asshole.
And guess what? I have to wear a brace. Yes a mother fucking brace, till i'm 16. This is so extremely screwed up. Fuck my life. Like seriously, it's becasue of an UNKNOWN CAUSE WTF?! THEN WHY MUST I HAVE IT? Fuck everyone who doesn't have a curved spine! FUCK YOU ALL!!!!
ARGH. And now I have chinese tuition all of a sudden. I ALREADY HAD FUCKING 5 PERIODS OF CHINESE AND NOW I'M GOING TO HAVE TUITION FOR 1 AND A HALF HOURS? DAMN YOU! And I STILL have yet to finish my art. Fucking great right?!
FFFFFFFFF UUUUUUUUUUUUU DOUCHE BAG SPINE!!! YOU RUINED MY LIFE.
WHY DIDN'T GOD MAKE A JELLYFISH. JELLYFISH DON'T HAVE SPINES, AND THEY CAN FUCKING LIKE STING ANY BLOODY PERSON THEY DON'T LIKE. I WANT TO BE A FUCKING JELLYFISH!
I BET ALEX DOESN'T LIKE BRACES. ARGHH.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU SPINE! Damn you. :'(
Fuck chinese, when will I bloody use it anyways? :(
I'm extremely angry and pissed off now. And yes, if you are in my group for the hike tomorrow and you piss me off, I will not hesitate you push you down the fucking hill. Especially if you're irritating and have a broken wrist.

P.S.// Hey assholes who don't wear braces (I mean both kinds), I have to wear a brace because I'm still growing. Like alot. There are like 5 stages of height and i'm at like 2. -_- Which is fucking lame. So yes, I'M GOING TO BE TALLER THAN ALL OF YOU WHEN I'M OLDER. WAKAKAKAKA. Bleh.
I hate Ke$ha. She sucks major meatballs.