I'm saving money, wanna donate to my funds?

Hey there little chaps! And woah does that sound english.
I want a boyfriend like Forrest Kline. :( He's so sweet to his girlfriend and he writes like every freaking song he has about her and she's pretty and she's always in his videos. And how do I know that? Because he included her name in his song. Someone should write me a song, but then again... I'm not a very interesting person am I? Sigh.... Forget it.
Oh and the donating money thing, IT'S SERIOUS OKAY! I figured I should save money so I can buy more shit every once in awhile rather than wait for every chinese new year. -_-
I have 35 buckeroos saved up now. When I get a hundred, I'm gonna buy useless things. :)
My godma got me the fulls season 2 of Gossip Girl. I'm inviting people to watch it with me from season 1 all the way till the end of two. Heh heh! :D

"For my baby, Andrew"
I do not have a boyfriend. :-/ It's my piano, idiots! ESPECIALLY TO SOMEONE WHO BOTHERED ME ON MSN. WTF.

Wake up you're a drama queen.

I just read someone's blog. And if that SOMEONE knows that you're that SOMEONE (okay, confusing) Then here's to you.
I DID read the conversation, as a matter of fact, I have the conversation. And guess what? I still think what you said wasn't right. If you think you're gonna end up like Hillary then why the hell did you make yourself this way? Look at how many times everyone has forgave you let alone me? You think that you're the only one getting hurt all the time. But like seriously, why should we keep forgiving you if you're just going to do it over and over again? As if it hasn't happened before. We are a team and that's why we're not like worsen-ing the situation. And stop telling us our flaws. We fucking get it. And also, stop trying to tell us to tell you all your flaws because we both know that you cannot handle it and that you'll start freaking over it. And you complain about things like oh, who's my partner and shit. Just choose one! Like seriously, settle your bloody problems with Jill. Don't come and tell us bullshit we could care less about because at the end of the day, i'm doubles with Hong Li and you're STILL going to have to choose. If you think that Jill or Amanda has so many flaws or like problems during badminton then look at yourself. Have you ever thought that maybe you've done some things that would've made them pissed at you? I'm not saying you're to blame or whatever but no one is entirely right in this situation. The whole point of this bloody meaningless post is not to piss you off but to tell you why everything is happening.

Holy jeepers!

Hello everybody, I am like extremely pissed off! I lost my fucking wallet! Not my current camera one but the old one! WITH ALL MY MEMBERSHIP CARDS IN THEM. And NO, it is not like fo arcades and stuff, it's things like my NIKE CARD. AND MY OLD DAMN CUTE EZ-LINK CARD. WTF MAN! BEST PICTURE EVER TAKEN OF ME PLEASE! DAMN PISSED OFF LA! AND WHO THE FUCK MISPLACED IT?! MY OLD MAID, THE ONE THAT FUCKING LEFT SINGAPORE BEFORE SHE FOUND IT! STUPID FUCKER SIA! DAMN PISSED OFF! FML.
IF SOMEONE COMES TO MY HOUSE AND HELPS ME FIND IT I SWEAR I'LL BE FUCKING HAPPY AND I'LL BUY YOU STUFF. I AM SO PISSED OFF. i want all my fucking memebership cards back! ASSHOLE WHO KEPT MY WALLET, YOU BETTER FUCKING FIND IT!!!!!! damn pissed la. I'm so sad. D: I want it back! NOW!!! NAOOOO! I'm gonna go cut myself now. TaTa.
:(

Hammers and Strings.

For my baby Andrew. :)


These hammers and strings, Been following me around.
From a box-filled garage, To the dark punk rock clubs, Of one thousand American towns.
And my friend calls me up, She says, "How have you been?"
I say, "Dear I've been well, Yeah the money's come in.
But I miss you like hell, I still hear you in this old piano.
She says "Andy, I know, That we don't talk as much.
But I still hear your ghost, In these old punk rock clubs.
Come on, write me a song, Give me something to trust.
Just promise you won't let it be, Just the keys that you touch"

Give me something to believe in, A breath from the breathing.
So write it down, I don't think that I'll close my eyes'.
Cause lately I'm not dreaming, So what's the point in sleeping?
It's just that at night,I've got nowhere to hide.
So I write you a lullaby.

I love you. :)

I'll write you a song.

Hello everymeow! I decided to write a fun post because well, my blog is dying. So yay! SO I HAD GUITAR CLASS AND WELL MY FRIEND GAVE ME AN IDEA TO WRITE A PARODY OF THE SONG THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED AND WHY THE HELL AM I TYPING IN CAPS? :D
Going back to the corner,where I first saw you.
Gonna kick you in the ass and tell you to bloody move.
Cause you blocked the road and you made me late,
Did you know my dentist appointment was supposed to be at eight?
Some tried to give you money, but they don't understand.
You're just a bastard who almost broke my hand.
I tried to move you away, cause what else can I do?
You also broke my watch, am I supposed to respect you?

Cause maybe one day you'll wake up and find that you're damn gulity,
And you'd wanna say sorry for the shit you did to me.
Thinking maybe I'll go back there to the place where you sit,
But i'll tell you in your face that you're a bloody effing twit.

Okay, that's all I can think of. Give me ideas! :D I wrote that in 5 minutes. HAHA, SO FUN! TEEHEE! Okay, I had home econs reccently AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M THE HOME ECONS MONINTOR (is it TER or TOR?) LA. WTF IS THIS?! I think I hate it and most and I'M the monintor?! SHE ALSO THINK SHE'S DAMN COOL CAUSE SHE CALLS ME JACK. LIKE WTF MAN. Then she'll be like "GURLS. GO PREPARE THE PEPPELS. THENS I WILL HELPS YOU CHOPP THE PEPPELS UP IN MY GRINDER!" And she acts as if she can cook damn well la! LIKE SHIT. OH MY GOD AND I HATE MY GEOG TEACHER. FULL OF SHIT MAN SHE!
I was like drawing a keyboard in class in my sketchbook, then she was like "Stop drawing!" Then I took my sketch book and threw it on the table then she looked through it then she took my FOOLSCAP PAPER. AND CLAIMS THAT I SOMEHOW MAGICALLY WAS ABLE TO WRITE SOMETHING IN MY FOOLSCAP PAPER WHILE I DRAWING IN MY SKETCHBOOK, AFTER SHE SAW ME DRAW. -_- Fucking idiot. Then she was like "GIRLS, STOP ALL YOUR NAUGHTY ACTS!" then Mary started laughing DAMN LOUDLY. HAHAHA. Then she was like "It's not a joke!" Then mary was gave the "if it weren't meant to be a joke, would it be so funny" kinda face. HAHAHA. Then she said she knows that all of us didn't hand up our work. Then mary shouted "NO LA." Then she went to check and mary was right! HA, BLOODY BITCH! You're seriously the reason why we're all failing geog la you. Go watch your stupid news or something. -_-
AND WHY IS HELL IS MAKSIM STILL MARRIED?! D:

I'm ready to drop.

Today I felt so bad. Like at the prata house I freaking shouted and I got like a major stare down from the seniors. Like argh, first things first, I HATE it when people take photos of me. Even if the photo is DAMN nice, I still fucking hate taking photos. It's like if you take a fucking gross photo of me, at least don't show me then when I have a major reaction you like diss me. It's like punching someone in the face for no reason and then like scolding them for like getting pissed. And I need like anger management and I also have a attitude problem. So yeah, if the seniors are reading this, okay, i'm really sorry but stop taking photos of me. That was serious.
And like argh, I'm really not joking anymore when I say I need someone to teach me how to control my anger. It's like I got pissed today because someone threw my eraser on the table. Like, it's not a very valid reason to get like damn pissed off at. And I mean, okay, if you're my close friend, you'd understand this but it's like I think even like a goodest of like good friends only know like at most 65% of who I really am about like everything that goes on in my life and I think the only person that knows me damn well is someone that isn't even here anymore. Like I'm different when I want to be different. It's like if I go all quiet, people think I've like turned into some freak. But like honestly, the only reason why I don't like to be silent all the time is because silence screams the truth and I cannot stand it. It tells me that I'm actually just better off without anyone with me. That I shouldn't even have friends because I'm hardly worth their time and I'm wasting it.
Okay, this is going to be quite shocking to my piano teacher, definitely.But the only time I don't feel pissed at all is when my hands touchs a keyboard. When I play the piano, I feel like I don't even need to like care about anyone anymore because I can just spend the whole day playing it. I mean to people who don't like music, it may be weird and shit but like yeah. I DO practice, just NOT the songs I am required to because I don't like them. And I bet my piano teacher doesn't even know I can actually play Mozart and Chopin pieces from that bloody thick book that I bought MYSELF to learn. And I'm not saying like that i'm damn good or whatever, I'm just saying that I love playing what I play, even the guitar, although I do like piano more, but it's still fun and I enjoy it. And like if you DON'T know me well, SOME OF YOU DON'T LA PLEASE just seriously stop making false accusations about my personality that you probably don't even know half of.
And seriously, after talking to jill, I feel that I'm more dissapointed in myself then anyone else. I am no god and I am at no right to judge them what-so-ever. I am dissapointed in myself, that after awhile, I've turned out be such a bloody screwed up kid. I hate myself more than I hate anyone and I mean it.
My life has just become a boring pop song and everyone is singing along...

You obviously dissapointed me.

Hello everybody. So today is a damn disspointing day for me.
For one, I swear everyone I have ever liked is either married or like in a relationship? Why can't I like people that are NOT together with someone else?! LIKE MAKSIM. YOU'RE MARRIED?! WHY?! TO ANNA? WHO'S SHE?!?!?! OH, APPARENTLY YOUR CHILDHOOD SWEETHEART. NOT SWEET AT ALL WHEN YOU ABANDON ME LIKE THAT!!! D: dammit and Alex has Lisa... EVEN THE PERSON I REGARD AS A "GOD" IS MARRIED. GOD-DAMMIT. So dissapointing. But on a serious note...

I seriously never knew you were the kind of person to like bitch about everyone. Okay, I admit that we all have flaws, even you do but seriously, do you have to be such a bloody asshole about it? And what's with the whole neglecting you thing? It may be because of some other stuff, but like dude, just because we talk to our CLOSE friends more, doesn't mean we're bloody neglecting you. Like you wouldn't want us to bitch about you right? Always saying sutff like oh you'll be hurt and crap. Then have you ever thought about any of our feelings? You know everyone is damn pissed with you now? Honestly do you think that bitching about all of us would help you? It'll make you friendless, and no matter how hurt you feel, do you think anyone will care? Like after what you did, I think they're just gonna like laugh or something. Too get this through to your head, I am not pissed at you at all. I am like fucking dissapointed that you'd turn out to be like that. Knock yourself out bitching about us. I could care less.

I like you, you like me, if I had Alex, I'd be bloody happy.

Hello everyone. I'm really pissed trying to figure out how to download the stupid fucking *FREE* tour pack shit. Dammit. Anyone has it?? Please send me the songs because OBVIOUSLY my computer is just a piece of shit metal stuck together. Or you can buy me a new computer, either one is fine by me. :)
Today was like the competition against St. Margs. Oh my god. No offence if you're from that school but the badminton coach was like full of shit. STAND AT THE SIDE AND TALK TO THE PLAYERS PLAYING LEH. CANNOT ONE LORH. And still nag like shit! Yi Ning lost, but she's still damn good la. :D *THREE CHEERS FOR YOU!!!* :D That girl was fat, that's why she won you. Because you're thinner. EAT MORE. :) Everyone else won. HAHA, IN YOUR FACE COACH. Then he walk also like limping like that. -_- wtf. I'm damn scared to play against RGS, but heck, i'll try my very bestest and I'm damn sure Hong Li will too!
This dude on facebook can play the piano really well, I wanna play like him. I WANNA LEARN FLIGHT OF THE BUMBLE BEE GOD DAMMIT. I DON'T CARE IF IT'S GRADE 8. I'M A FUCKING 7! GIMMIE THE GOD-DAMN SCORE! urgh. That's how much I want to play it. D:
Like I fucking love Maksim Mrvica. He's the first pianist I would bang. second would be Andrew, I am sorry. Even though you are like a god to me Andrew BUT, Maksim ISN'T MARRIED! :( Plus! If Maksim's fingers can move so fast and like they're so damn strong, imagine what he can do.... :) heh heh. I'm not gross you know, I mean like seriously come on la. >:)
MAKSIM IS MINE. GO AWAY. He might not be that hot but heck, he has hella sexy arms. ;) SO I CHOPE HIM. GO AWAY! D: PLUS, I HAVE HIS CD. HA! I BET YOU MOFOs DON'T! WAKAKAKA! I FEEL SO POWERFUL! :)
Okay, I shall make a list of the top ten people I wanna bang. :D No paticular order. Cept the first one. ;)
1. Alexander Gaskarth.
2. Caleb Turman.
3. Sam Embery or Ben. Not sure...
4. Gabe Saporta.
5. Maksim.
6. Andrew Mcmahon.
7. Alex Turner.
8. Amir.
9. John Mayer.
10. Brendon Urie. (I'm sorry maria. heh heh heh.)
HAHA, GO STALK THEM AND BUY THEM FOR ME. HAHA. YOU CAN JOIN IN IF YOU WANT! Unless you're gross and will like give us STDs. Then go away. :-/
if you're thinking "ew, gross person" YOU COULD NOT BE MORE correct. This is just a joke la seriously. :-/ BUT I REALLY WANNA BANG ALEX. THAT IS NOT A JOKE. I REPEAT. NOT A JOKE. haha. okay. doop. doop. dooop.

I swear that my love for you is deeper than the bloody abyss.

Hello. Like you. No not you, ALEX! heh heh! That was random.
We had like the sec 2 training today. Damn awesome, I want more trainings like that, tapping coach was bloody fun! Especially the doubles with Hong Li! Hahaha, not to mention someone who was paired up with me and bloody miss everything and try to act cool by trying to snatch all my balls! HUH?! YOU HAPPY WE LOST?! *COUGH* hillary! *COUGH* Grrrr. Miss all the balls then look at me somemore. Wtf man. And coach has a new stalker! HER NAME RHYMES WITH DERMANDA! *COUGH* amanda! *COUGH* heh heh. Like seriously! She smiles whenever he's surfing the shuttles to her leh! And like still give a che-ko-peh smile leh! Like that ---> ^^ Eeee. Hahaha, coach should watch out. :-/ AND THERE WAS THIS HOT GUY TRAINING AT YCK TOO. No wonder I couldn't lobe properly.... Then there was these few pingpong boys! SO CUTE AND SMALL AND ONE KEPT GIVING US THE CHE-KO-PEH FACE. HAHAHA. Fun fun fun.
On the way to YCK, we saw Tiffany! KEKEKE! CUT SHORT HAIR AH. WAH. I bet you have a boyfriend. ;D Don't lie to me. :)
And my stupid home econs teacher made me late again. FOR THE SECOND TIME, WE DO NOT CARE ABOUT BRINGING TOMATOES TO SCHOOL. AND WE DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT YOU FORCE YOUR CHILDREN TO DO BEFORE THEY SLEEP!!!! Today she still wanted to tell us stories about her children leh! WAH LAU. PLEASE LA. LOOK AT MY FACE, DO I LOOK LIKE I GIVE A SHIT?! -_- <---- my face during home econs.
AND THEN SHE STILL FORCE US TO MAKE BLOODY DISGUSTING NASI LEMAK! WAH LAU! It's like damn gross la! The ingredients had like house flies all around them (FUCKING GROSS) and like SHE GAVE ME AND NICOLE A ROTTEN ONION. BITCH OR WHAT SIA?! STILL FORCE US TO TAKE TWO PORTIONS AND SAY THAT WE'RE DAMN SLOW. Crazy bitch! Of course we're slow la! Two fucking gross bowls of crap, HOW FAST CAN WE CUT IT??? I love alex, I put his picture in my file so when I open it, I can see his picture! Hahaha! Sounds so stalker-ish. SHUT UP. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU'RE IN LOVE. :( Thomas dyed his hair. From blonde to brown. wtf. :( and bloody decided to get a girlfriend. FINE. FINE. FINE. I'm gonna make a shirt with Jill. Mine's gonna say "Team Gaskarth" And hers is gonna be "Team Barakat" HAHAHAHA.
TEAM GASKARTH PWNS ALL!!!!!!! BAHAHAHHAA!

I thought of something cool.

Hey guys! Heads up to people in 2/3!! I THOUGHT OF AN AWESOME QUOTE FOR OUR CLASS SHIRT.
"Your class sucks - Nothing Personal"
Heh heh, if ANYONE from any other class reads this, and uses it, I'll fuck you up. :-/ You know the stupid blogging thing on my iPod touch doesn't work?! IT WON'T LET ME BLOODY LOG IN! That's bad. And that sucks. My sister's doing a project. I feel like helping, but i'm afraid i'll screw up so too badz. Rachel Hong told me she talks to JB's like cousin or something. IF ALEX HAD A COUSIN THAT WAS LIKE THAT NICE TO TALK TO ME ALL THE TIME AND SHIT, I SWEAR, I'D MOVE TO BALTIMORE. Damn, I wish ATL came to Singapore, I'd die. But then i'd come back alive in time for their concert. (Duh)
My ankle still sucks, it's like freakin wrapped with bandages. And it smells like chinese medicine and shit. Grosss. And like there's one part that looks yellow, like someone peed on it. -_- But, whatevs. As long as it heals in time, I'll be greatful. I swear when that small chinese lady was helping me like rub it and shit, it was one of the most painful moments of my life. AND THAT LADY WAS LIKE 2 TIMES SMALLER THAN ME. But she was like bloody strong! Like a freaking zombie! Or like superwoman! The small asian version! Damn. I was like Dude..... you're strong. :-/ then she was like yap yap yap chinese crap and I was like mmm.... *I don't understand you but i'll just nod and say okay*
Okay, pray that my ankle heals in time. I bet coach is gonna kill me. Grrr.
Okay so most of you know, I HATE Ke$ha. She sucks. She's a slut. Alex follows her on Twitter. D: GO AWAY KESHA. GO TICK YOUR TOCKS. ALEX IS MINE. Her name is slut. :-/


Heh heh, i feel proud. I edited this myself. WHEEE!

My ankle looks fat now.

Done with the sad posts. I can't believe I cried. When coach asked me what happened. Shit. So weird. I never cry. Ew. Damn. Okay nevermind.
I HOPE MY STUPID ANKLE HEALS IN TIME SO WE CAN BEAT BLOODY RGS!!! GRRR. Hong Li and I pwn n00bz. Heh heh. ;) Watch out bitchas.
Okay, heard this FUCKING good cover of Toxic by BRIT! By VE. Woah my god. Pure awesomeness in a awesome box. Box? Wtf. They pwn noobz too. They pwn Paramore. Yes, they do. VE pwns paramore yes they do, we can kill RGS how bout you?! :D I hope no one from RGS reads this, they might throw their math books at me. :B
I went for my new guitar class today. Much better. Although, I don't get to see white boy anymore.. :( But I have him on FB. and well... okay. Shouldn't say anything about him. :-/
But yeah! The new class is fun and awesome and tis going to be awesome foreva. Ho ho hopefully...
And sorry hong li for pissing you off just now. Wasn't feeling too good. (pretty obvious) -_- Okay.

Tiffany : HAHA. Thankew! I try I try. ;D Heh heh. I don't wanna be a comedian la. I don't wanna be funny like ALL the time. Heh heh (LIE).

Grrrr.

First off, I'd like to apologize to everyone in badminton who had to see me cry today. I repeat, I DO not cry. Not even at home. And well, today and yesterday was just shit for me on levels you guys would not understand. And well, to everyone, you guys should know that I don't cry. I think today was a first. I think you guys should know that I sprained my ankle today while playing doubles. And that my parents don't even care enough to understand how much the upcoming competition means to me. Thanks for understanding. Goodbye.

I'm 5 degrees away from dying.

I think people like pissing me off when they can already tell that i'm in a fucking bad mood.
I feel fucking horrible so whoever pissed me off today just killed my mood even more.
Hillary fucking Wan. Seriously. I felt like fucking ripping your head apart. And no after insulting me, you STILL wanted to talk to me seriously. Would it fucking KILL you to like be nicer? OR LESS BITCHY? EVEN AFTER YOU ALREADY HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS? Or are you trying to live fast and die young? If you are, can you die faster?
Why the fuck is my spine so badly curved? I am fucking 5 degrees away from it being like fucking screwed up. And NO, Victoria fucking Chua, You little asshole. Seriously. If you were older, i'd screw your life up. I came home wanting to like fucking rest and have a bloody nice dinner but NO. My mom just had to make it so much fucking worse. Telling me to fucking quit badminton cause it was bad for my back. Fucking stupid, then you put fucked up oil on my back that burned so fucking badly that my skin tore. All you could do is to tell me to fucking wash it off? What the fuck man, seriously. As if you didn't know my day was already bad enough. And you still kept blabbing on about shit I hardly even want to hear about, and you didn't care even when you knew I was tired of listening to your bullshit?AND YOU HAVE TO KEEP MENTIONING ABOUT DAD LEAVING. I KNOW HE IS FUCKING LEAVING AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW BADLY I DON'T FUCKING WANT HIM TO LEAVE. Then you told me I should said thank you. FOR WHAT? BURNING MY FUCKING BACK AND MAKING ME FEEL WORSE? Seriously, continue watching your fucking TV. You obviously like teachnology more than you like me.

Damn Rough Night.

Hello guys. Omg, I love the AVP album. Awesome shit right there.
Anyways, today was a really bad day for me! *kinda* Okay ONE. My home econs teacher a freaking mofo I tell you. Make us do all the shit for her. SHE SAID THE SINK CAN'T HAVE WATER. Uh HELLO? WHAT IS THE BLOODY THING USED FOR? Then I went to take the ketchup then like the stupid ketchup didn't wanna come out THEN MY FAULT LA. I SHAKE THE THING ALSO CANNOT. Then she said "Gur ah, I don't lye the way chu do tings." Then I'm like yeah... Okay. Then she tells me i'm a good girl. WTF. MAKE UP YOUR MIND.
Then it's like her english damn epic fail la.
It - RIT (WTF MAN?!)
Whatever - WHATEVL.
Finger - FINGEL.
Number - NUMBEL.
Then I remember on the first day of home econs, she was seriously full of crap. She started telling us about a girl bringing tomatoes to school. WHO THE HELL WOULD BRING A TOMATO TO SCHOOL. Then she said the kid's mom wanted her to bring it. AS A MOTHER, WOULD YOU BE THAT STUPID TO TELL YOUR BLOODY KID TO BRING A WHOLE TOMATO TO SCHOOL? FOR WHAT?! For vitamins says the teacher. VITAMIN THEN TAKE PILLS LA. WAH LAU. PILLS SO SMALL TOMATO SO BIG. The mother seriously needs to go back to school. And mind you the girl was a bloody sec 1 student. -_- bloody stupid kid I tell you. Exam confirm fail. Speaking of sec 1s. You know what I think? I think that most of the sec ones this year are bloody screw ups. (Do not take offence if you are sec one this year. I said MOST. Not all) Like seriously la, alt of them have a bloody freaking attitude problem. And like they're not even nice. See our year? 1996? Awesome shit la I tell you. We're such nice people. :) Especially those in badminton. Who helped to "entertain" the sec 4s while they waited? *me* HUH? They had a awesome time okay. And they cried because they were so touched by all the love I gave them. :D I'm such a great junior. CLAP CLAP. So yeah la, I doubt we'll even be getting a farewell from our sec ones. -_- ESPECIALLY A CERTAIN SOMEONE WHO TOLD THENG LEE THAT SHE MADE ALOT OF MISTAKES ON COURT. Coach said you can't run. HAHA, bloody bastard. :D HOHOHOHO. KEKEKE. WAKAKAKA. okay.

Deep and Meaningless.

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction. And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection. If you call me today, I'll say that I'm fine. But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice, It's just a lie. You knew what you had, You still walked away leaving me in this mess. My love for you is deep and meaningless. You, you knew what you were doing to me. And I, I guess I was too blind to see. Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad, But I'd do it again to relive what we had. Damn that's sad.

Digital Love.

Luc writes nice songs. I love his songs. Good song writer, random guy. :-/
I am so depressed thinking about how I didn't go for the Cat Power concert. Not only did I want to go, I felt the need to go. And I didn't. That sucks major balls. I still like alex. I don't like teachno but I love Daft Punk. Is that weird? And I love Alphabeat. Digital Love is a nice song. And Alphabeat did a awesome cover of it.
I like watching TV.
I like Alex.
I like you.
I have flaws.
You have more.
I'm sorry.
Not really.
This is getting random.
I'm sorry.
Not.

The weight of the world, singing sorrow.

Telling to straight to your face isn't going to help much because no matter how tough you act, I know you're dying inside. Nobody is that strong. Face it. You're exactly like the person you "air quote" never want to be. You bitch about her and shit like that and what? What good's gonna come out from that? So what if you "hate" her? I can't help it. You're not always the one that's right. You hardly are. There is no right reason to do something wrong. And seriously, the whole issue today. I hardly seemed pissed but you know how bloody pissed off I was? You're the one that's like doing everything you said I was bloody doing to you. They should sell lives. And no matter how expensive one might cost, you should bloody buy one, because I know it will be worth alot. Why should I have to try to fix things I didn't create? Go on with the way you are now. I can assure you it isn't going to get you very far. Trust me.

I haz cutted my hair.

Hello guys. After like a year of not doing anything to my hair, my dad finally forced me to cut it. And it's short. Long-short. Kinda. I'm so sad. :( But the guy that helped me cut my hair was like really nice. He had nice hair (duh) and like he spoke in chinese and I didn't understand shit so I just nodd-ed my head whenever he said something. Then he helped me like put some weird hair shit on my hair and It feels awesome. And my hair smells like hair soap shop place. (Wtf) :D
My hair is not even like half wavy anymore. Wtf. All the nice parts of my hair were like viciously chomped away by that nice chinese man. But I'm kinda amazed. He cut my hair in like 8 minutes or something. But it took him like a damn long time to dry my hair because it's so bloody thick. Damn I miss my old hair. :( The super light brown almost copper parts at at the bottom are gone. And my hair looks horrible. Sighz. I hate math as of now. How the fuck am I supposed to do my bloody math homework if I don't know how to do it? Teachers think I'm lazy and shit because I leave it blank but no way man, I actually sit down for like a bloody time trying to figure math out. So. Teachers to read it this shit. :-/ I like my Lit teacher. HAHA. Vegetarian.

PECK! : YEAH LA. I hate this year's sec ones man. All of them are like crazy irritating freaks. Especially the one who doesn't know whether to join badminton or track. Hope she joins track man. :-/

Alex Gaskarth. :)

I know you're something I can never have but would it kill to watch you through my screen for a second? Damn do you look hot in those jeans and hell do you look fine in my dreams. A cut above the rest, you're god-damn amazing, your band is so mainstream now that your paycheck is raising. You're such a man-whore, but you're so hot, you already proved to them what you've got. I know you're older than me by nine, but I'm damn sure if I met you, I could make you mine. You have first place in my heart, you're not like anyone else. I love you sexy man-whore Gaskarth.

I want your love and..... wait. No, not really.

Hello guys, so today was fun, but the bus ride home from Jill's house was HORRIBLE. Kinda. There are so many freaking weirdos that take 131. oh my god la. Okay when I got in the bus, there was this like damn young couple. I think they were like I think 15 only. And so when I got on the bus, the girl was like laughing at me cause I think I went to stand in front of the where and bus was and blah blah. Then her boyfriend gave her that -_- face. Then when both of them were getting off, like that bitch started laughing again when they walked pass me, then her boyfriend said "At least she's not ugly." HAHAHAHA. Okay, that was a nice thing to say. But the girl's reaction was like priceless. He was like -_- and she was like :O Wtf. Hahaha. :-/ Not funny.
Okay, then there was this bloody stupid old ugly loner man. Like I was standing and he bloody stood in front of me and asked "Do you play badminton?" Then I looked at my racket and I was like "Uh, yeah?" In my mind I was like "Are you retarded or something? Can't you see i'm holding a bloody badminton racket?!" Oh my god, he was like damn stupid. Then when I said yeah then YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID? "Wah, really ah?" NO NOT REALLY. THAT'S WHY I HAVE A BADMINTON RACKET AND BADMINTON SHOES. WTF. :-/ He's already like freaking socially retarded because like he has no friends and like he's now mentally retarded? I pity him. I hate it when people ask bloody stupid questions. Okay, then there was this STUPID young china man that oh my god. You know what? Nevermind. All he did was just like smell bad. I mean, well, I didn't smell very good because it was after training, but he was like all dressed up! He probably has B.O. ew. Gross, I feel sorry for the person he's meeting. He should take a shower. Like major shower.
Tag reply to TIFF : She's this bitch that is like DAMN rude too all of us and like thinks she's effing pro at badminton. Oh and Yeah! They censor stuff. Yeah, they do...

I am eating chocolates from Europe.

I need friends for many reasons, I'm gonna have an on and off dad in about a few weeks. Well, someone very very nice told me that I could only have one best friend ever. So.... That sucks. Well, that very very nice someone also helped me with all my problems with my dad. And advice and just talked to me and stuff. We don't talk very much now, but well, I still remember the stuff you said because I need them. Damn. Yeah, thanks a freaking gazillion, you made me feel better when I was having a crappy day. You are a nice person. I like nice people. You have nice hair. And you like the same awesome sexy beast as me. :)
Okay, that's awesome. You're probably one of the only people I talked to my dad about. Okay, that wasn't really like, whatever. Well, I doubt you even read my blog but Tag! Everyone should tag! Because it makes me happy! Okay, awesome. Goodnight. :)

Random, yes. Yes....

Hello everybody. :D
The song Stella by ATL is about beer. Yeah, I think I said that before. The brand of beer my mom likes. Yummy. ;) I love Alex. And Halvo. When he's cute. sometimes. Okay anyways, I really have nothing to blog about today at all. Sometimes my posts are fun. Sometimes my posts are all emo and like not fun? Hahahaha, today's gonna be a fun day. I guess. Random things. Well, what happy things should I write about today? Hmm, OH YEAH, Coach said Hong Li and I have a chance in beating AMK for zonals. HA, SUCK IT. :)
Okay, then there is this stupid junior bitch. OH MY GOD. I can bloody kill her I tell you. ATTITUDE PROBLEM. She's not even like nice with a attutide problem, she's like MEAN with a attitude problem, AND SHE'S RUDE!! Her parents should roll her in mud. :B and like spank her. Multiple times. Okay. Not a very happy post comin up in a lil' bit.

The hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.

Hello everybody, I feel like puking really badly, but I'm not going to. :-/
I am going to study and do math homeowork.
Wow, I'd never thought I'd say that, ever. Awesome. I'm gonna work hard this year and get kickass grades, except for Geography, I don't really care. So yeah! I whipped out my awesome black and white calculator and I'm on to doing questions.
I have just read the first question and it doesn't make sense. Okay, I need alot of practice. But I like my math teacher now. He's super awesome and he sweats alot and he's gonna have a baby! :D At first I thought he was gay but he's nice. I hope my drama teacher is Mr. A. I think he's be a cool teacher. Oh my god, I really feel like puking.
Why is the stupid math book asking a bloody science question?! DENSITY IS NOT MATH! (as far as I know). I just got a text regrading badminton. I love badminton. :)
Okay so, I think I need to do math now. But I feel like puking. So I don't think I feel like doing anything. I got a freaking bruise on my wrist. wtf. How did it get there? Hmmm, I wonder.
(On a side note : ALEX LOOKED EXTREMELY AWESOME IN THE DO YOU FEEL VIDEO. DELICIOUS. SO DID ANDREW AND MATTIE!) Well yes, my guitar teacher thinks I'm on drugs because I'm sorta high and mentally unstable during his classes. He thinks I should switch to a non beginners class. Should I feel happy? Or should I feel sad because maybe he just wants to kick me out? Naw, I don't think so, he's gonna teach the other class too. Okay forget about that. I need to do math, but I still need to puke dammit. But I can't puke so I feel horrible. OMG!askarth. Hehe. Awesome. I need something to talk about. This is getting nowhere. *maybe it is....* *wink wink* This is so lame Jacqueline. Oh my god, I called myself Jacqueline. I just did it again. :-/ This is getting random and lame and I am talking to myself. Damn does my bruise hurt! *presses bruise repeatedly* OUCH. Oh, by the way, I can lob all the way to the back now! I feel great! And tired. I don't want to take my piano theory exam. It's like a few months away and I can't even remember the the sequence of the chords. I need a haircut. My hair is like really really long but I like it. :( But my mom thinks I need a haircut. So yes, I am going to cut my hair. Soon. Maybe. I hope not. This is getting so bloody random. Oh, I read that Lady GaGa is satanic. I don't know. But she's cool. Impressive. Yes it bloody is.

The ice is getting thinner.

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be.

The seasons have changed and so have we.

There was little we could say and even less that we could do,

To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you.

We buried our love in the wintery grave.

A lump in the snow was all that remained

But we stayed by its side, as the days turned to weeks.

And the ice kept getting thinner with every word that we'd speak.

When the spring arrived, we were taken by surprise,

When the flows under our feet bled into the sea,

And nothing was left for you and me.

We're not the same dear and it seems to me.

There's nowhere we can go with nothing underneath.

Then it saddens me to say what we both knew was true,

That the ice was getting thinner under me and you.

Defy the law of gravity.

Gravity brings us down, it's what keeps us where we are. I hate where I am and it's time I think I leave because staying here will do me no good. Gravity should learn to let me go. It isn't good to act like you're happy when you're not. I am not happy. You don't want me to stay and neither do I want to. Flaws are meant to be seen by perfect people and you are not one of them. So you should just shut the hell up and leave me be. If you can find five flaws in me, I can find a hundred in you. So stop acting like you're the only one that can get pissed at everyone and that it's a sin to be pissed off at you. I need gravity to pull me back to earth but I also need to it to stay the hell away from me.

Oh gravity.

Gravity.

I still feel the same after this whole while and figured that no one is to blame. I don't have to attend every argument I'm invited to do I? So I'm just gonna stay where I am and ignore everyone around me for a second. I think it's god-damn irritating that I don't have time to myself to think. It's bullshit. I'm so pissed at myself that I just think that I'm pissed at everyone else. I realized today that I need time. Untill I get it, I don't think I can stop being angry with myself. I need to know what the hell is wrong with me.


Gravity is working against me,
And gravity wants to bring me down.
Twice as much ain't twice as good,
And can't sustain like a one half could.
It's wanting more, that's gonna send me to my knees.

Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me.

Life's (not) good.

Hi. I am very pissed. With myself. And I am gonna trash everyone now. Including myself. Damn.
1. My badminton SUCKS.
2. I lost a freaking match even though I was paired with coach.
3. I am hungry.
4. It's damn depressing.
5. Gonna be in a group with a girl I dislike.
6. Kinda pissed at someone. (not from badminton)
AND LASTLY.
Okay I told you I was gonna be like okay with it and stuff but it's kinda bothering me and I'm like freaking pissed and stuff so I'm just gonna say it.
IF YOU DON'T WANNA BE A GROUP WITH MARY AND ME THEN FUCKING LEAVE. WE DON'T NEED A BIAS DOUCHEBAG LIKE YOU IN OUR GROUP. LEAVE FOR ALL I CARE. SERIOUSLY. BLOODY IDIOT. IF YOU CAN'T WORK WITH US BECAUSE YOU'RE A BITCH THEN FINE. I NEVER LIKED YOU ANYWAYS. YOU CAN GO TO ANOTHER GROUP WITH PEOPLE THAT DON'T MIND YOU ROLLING YOUR EYES AT THEM OR GIVING STUPID FACES. I DON'T NEED YOU AND I NEVER WILL. GO SUCK IT. THEN GO TO HELL.

Alex is a very deep man.

Hey guys, so well, I decided to blog. Yay me.

I wanna start of with saying, DO NOT DISS ALEX GASKARTH. :) Okay. He wrote the song Stella about beer. How deep is that? Go listen la, see whether you shallow people can understand. (I am kidding about the shallow people part).

I went to the uh... I forgot how to spell that word. Shit. Nevermind, I shall blog about something else. OH, I THINK I OFFCIALLY LIKE ALMOST EVERY ANDREW IN THE WORLD. AND THEY'RE HOT.

1. Andrew Ross McMahon (bows)

2. Andrew Van Wyngarden. (drools)

3. ANDREW I SAW AT BURGER KING WITH JILL THAT WAS FRIENDS WITH SLUTS.

Okay, three is not alot. But, it's still awesome. Awesome Andrew. Except for some. Ew.

CAN YOU LOOK AT THIS AND TELL ME YOU DON'T LIKE HIM? HE IS SO CUTE AND HE HAS MONEY. WHO DOESN'T WANT THAT MAN? (mine, don't steal him.)
This is one example of an Andrew. :)
See?! Cute right? I know. Thanks. *flips hair* But yeah, Alex's are cute too! ot sure about Alexander The Great is hot but.... yeah, I one I know is. AND JOHNS. JOHN MAYER. C'mon, I don't get why almost everyone says he's too old. He's not too old. Guitar Gods do NOT grow old.

Look at that and tell me that is not hot. C'mon people. Are you blind? DO YOU ONLY LIKE KOREAN GUYS?! ^%$@#

Okay, that's all for now. TATA!
(I cannot believe I just said that.)

How much it hurts.

Speak, speak your mind.

You're always telling me I need to open mine.

And wait, wait your turn,

Then shut me out cause you've got nothing left to learn.

Oh, you say there's nothing wrong with being proud,

So tell me what you love and say it loud.

Now here's the dose that you've been dishing out,

If you're listening, this is how much it hurts.

Oh, I'm wrong, I'm wrong again.

But not because of where I stand but where I've been.

And it burns, you know it burns like hell.

To know there's nothing I can do but wish you well.

You say there's nothing wrong with being proud,

So tell me what you love and say it loud.

I've been good enough to stay and hear you out.

But you're wrong, You're never wrong.

Oh, you say there's nothing wrong with being proud.

Yeah, so tell me what you love and say it loud.

I've been giving you the benefit of the doubt.

If you're listening, this is how much it hurts.